Yesterday I had made the decision to adjust my goals for this weekend’s race, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized this still might not be the best decision for my body, for successfully setting myself up for my “A race” and my mental state.
I went out to our local “swamp” to get one last open water swim in before heading to Lawrence and encountered one slight snag…without the wetsuit, the knee is VERY angry. I didn’t even make it to the first buoy before I decided to be done.
Since the water temperature in Clinton Lake can hover around 76.1F (the water temperature where the wetsuit is no longer allowed), this could pose a problem for the 1.2 mile swim.
I had a BIG decision to make. Do I go to Lawrence hoping my knee isn’t so angry on race day so I can at least start the race? Do I go to Lawrence without any gear so I can only spectate? Do I stay at home and not put myself in a predicament where I might change my mind last minute and decide to give the race a try or worse…have a negative attitude because I’m not racing (this wouldn’t be good for the Iron Hippie and Allen who are racing)? How will participating in this race help me get closer to the finish line at IRONMAN Wisconsin?
This was all I needed to remind me that my A race is IMWI. So in this battle, the head won. I NEED to focus on getting 100% healthy. I NEED to slowly ease back into run training, so I don’t set myself back further. I NEED to make smart decisions to successfully toe the start line of IMWI. I NEED to stay home and not put myself in a predicament where I might change my mind and start the race. I NEED to stay home so I am not surrounding others who are racing with negative energy.
It sucks when the head and the heart don’t align. What decisions have you had to make when the head and heart don’t align?